Being in need is not a position that I find comfortable or desirable. I would rather be self-sufficient, moving through life with such independent grace that you all stop and think, “Wow, that woman has it all together”.
However, lately I have been in much need, the ugly cry kind of need, the emotional basket case with a disastrous house kind of need, the I-am-anything-but-the-woman-with-it-all-pulled-together kind of need.
I changed my mind though about the being in need thing because God can only be strong when I realize my weakness.
Tonight I feel weak we leave and saying goodbye to the girls felt like ripping out a chunk of flesh but I know that God will continue to provide.
And to be totally honest, it’s okay. When I am Miss Independent, and in the mode of “let me try to fool you about how everything is under control while effortlessly balancing two toddlers on my hips”, I can feel isolated because I miss out on the blessing of community. I don’t think you really buy my act anyway. :)
We expressed a need, and WOWZA! You’ve delivered. We are humbled by your encouragement, your prayers, your bags of donations, your support and your love.
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10