In less than 24 hours, we hit the road, with a direct route back to the Midwest! As I began to pack up today, I had to stop and just try to isolate the emotions I am feeling.
We are so excited to go home and we get to see family and friends starting on Saturday night! This is exactly how I anticipated my feelings. If only they stopped there. Underneath those, I feel sad. Overall, I am thankful to feel sad because as we have learned here, sadness at leaving only comes if you have loved and been loved. In five weeks, this weird place where we don’t have wifi in our rooms and have to eat all of food through a cafeteria lunch line, actually started to feel like…home.
And for that, praise God. It gives me hope, hope that God can make any place begin to feel like home. Granted, there was not a lot of culture shock here and we all thrive in community, still, I rejoice.
We press on, taking the “yucks” with the “yays”, dragging our girls through another goodbye. More friends came in the last two weeks and they probably won’t ever see again, going to Mali, India and Italy.
We are so glad to be going home to be with our people, but we will ache and miss our new people. A fact of life for every change I guess. Today, when Little A heard we were leaving she said, “Mama, my body doesn’t want to change”.
Some things we will miss.
Always someone to play with…
Little A finally learned to jump off things. A chunk of every day was spent jumping off this mantle.
Talking to Jess while swinging kiddos
Playmates to have indoor “sledding” parties on lunch trays.
Walking into our room to grab something and entering to see 6 kids (The Littles not included) happily playing in our room.
(Okay, couldn’t handle that every day!)
Colorado’s beauty, a serendipitous mix of snow and sunshine.
Late night conversation with friends that feel like family.
I did not know how much it would cost to let myself feel the sadness. When I know this is a fraction of what we will feel as we fly across the ocean to Ethiopia, I want to curl into the fetal position and rock back and forth.
In all of this, I have joy. I am excited about our future.
Another chapter complete. We are so much richer through this. Thank you for all your love, encouragement and support.
Can’t wait to see you!