Monday, January 2, 2012

Painting Pictures of Egypt

Out on the beach I was reflecting on the new year.  It feels like a fresh start and I love those, like a new razor, new sheets or the crisp pages of a new journal but this year as I thought back on 2011 and the complete trajectory change that it has brought, I thought, "I just want my life back!".

A Sara Groves' song that has ministered to me at various points in my life came to mind. In "Painting Pictures of Egypt" she sings about the children of Israel desiring to go back to Egypt and complaining in the wilderness.

"I've been painting pictures of Egypt, leaving out what it lacks,
because the future seems so hard that I want to go back.
But the places that used to fit me, cannot hold the things I've learned,
so that road was closed off to me, while my back was turned."

I rejoice in how God has grown me this year.  I haven't shared much of the journey with you because it has seemed like a roller coaster and what I thought was a concrete plan has changed and changed and changed. Seriously, I do rejoice, but I also think that if 2012 is like 2011, I might just curl up and die on my knees, a lot.

I don't really "want my life back".  I just want to be comfortable again and in control but am so thankful to know that His Grace will continue to be sufficient and His is strong in my weakness.

As vacation nears an end, I am so thankful to know that His Grace will continue to be sufficient.

Now a few pictures to lighten the mood. ;)


Sheila said...

Watching you on the roller coaster has helped me in my faith...just know you are not alone in the struggle. One of my favorite quotes is "God does not protect when He is trying to perfect". I may not always understand the trial, but I try to have faith in the purpose. Blessings to all of you this new year!

Nichole said...

that is one of my most favorite songs! i think of you often and pray for you as you go along on this roller coaster journey!